Snow day

On my snow day, I stayed home and cleaned the house for my mom. It was also a birthday present to her because I know that she loves when the house is spotless. She was so thankful when she came home and she had a lazy day the rest of the day. I love it most when my mom is relaxing because she has worked so hard almost her whole life. My mom says that she doesn't mind cleaning the house but I know that she loves when it's already clean for her. 

Journal #21

I regret not taking advantage of the time with my grandma when I had the chance before she passed away. I remember that I would always go with my mom to my grandmas house, and I remember getting bored and not wanting to be there for very longer.  My biggest regret is when I think about how I used to always want to go home and play, instead of staying there visiting with my grandma. I just wish I was older back then so I could've cared more about my grandma and less about my own self entertainment. If I could go back I would definitely change that. 

Fall break

      My fall break was really fun. I didn't spend one night at my house. My favorite part about fall break was that I got to hangout with my boyfriend for a night and it was pretty amazing. I always have the best time with him. 

      The second best thing that happened over fall break is when I hungout with my best friend Kylie. We went to a haunted house and those are always really fun. My mom was going to go with us but she doesn't like those things so she didn't go. 

      

Journal 16

I walked into my house and saw Ian somerholder from the vampire diaries just standing there. The first thing I did was collapse to rhe floor. And then he hugged me and i woke back up and I just gazed into his eyes. I was so in shock that he was actually at my house. All I could do was stare at him because he was just that hot.

Ian and I spend the day together.. And I told him how hot he was every chance that I could. Ian and I became best friends that day and I will never forget the time that we spent together. And then before Ian was getting ready to leave.. He said Katie will you marry me? And of course I said yes. So now we are living happily ever after,. 

Free write.

Well today is free write day, so I've just decided to write about my day. It's going pretty good so far. I wish that it would go faster. It seems like last period always drags on.. Nut maybe that's just because I'm almost done with all of my work. When I woke up this morning I really didn't want to go to school.... But my mom always preaches about how it's a responsibility and that I'm not responsible if I don't go. She likes to guilt me into being a good person.. Which i don't know why, because I kind of am a good person!

Best friend choice.

        If I was in a situation where my best friend had to choose between be or their significant other, I would tell them to choose their significant other. Because it doesn't really make sense to choose a friend if you don't feel the same type of love for you friend as you do your boyfriend/girlfriend.

        I know that this isn't really something that I would ever do.. Because I would never choose between the two. But if I really had to choose then I would also choose my significant other. 

         I feel like I would be the better choice though because I know that I'm someone that can be counted on. And I know that I am a good friend.. So why wouldn't I be the better choice?

Suicide Journal #11

M: hey K, I need to talk to you. I haven't been feeling right and a lot of things have been going on and I just can't take it anymore. I need help because I don't feel like I belong here anymore.. I want to kill myself. 

K: Oh my gosh M. You can't be serious! Tell me the problem and talk to me about things before you even think about making a horrible decision like that. 

M: no. I'm tired of talking about it. No one understands. No one will ever understand. I can't live another day on this earth. I'm tired of being on this planet where I don't feel happy or loved. I just can't take it anymore. 

K: Wow M. I'm really sorry to hear that you have so much going on. I could tell you were acting different but I never would've thought that you would ever seriously consider suicide. 

M: I just don't know what to do. 

K: You've gotta be smart M. Killing yourself is the most selfish thing on earth that one could do. 

K: There are so many people out there that love you and if you were to kill yourself it would break their heart and mine as well..  Don't make a permanent decision to a temporary problem. 

M: you just understand K... No one does. I don't know what to do with myself. Suicide is the only option. 

K: you should go to a psychologist or see some type of counseler for your problems. M, there are so many people out there that could help you.. You've just got to give them a chance. 

M: I think you might be right K. But I just don't know where to start with all of this. I'm just so depressed. 

K: I will give you the number for the suicide hotline and you can start with that. I've heard a lot of great things about it and I bet they can set you in the right direction.

M: Thanks K, I really appreciate all that you've done for me. Suicide is a nasty thought, but you can't say that it hasn't ever crossed your mind. 

K: M, I'm pretty sure that it has crossed everyone's mind at some time or another, but those people realize the better things in life. Things will always get better no matter what. 

M: You're right Katie. Thanks again!

K: What are friends for? We've always got each other's backs. 

M: That's for sure :)