Suicide Journal #11

M: hey K, I need to talk to you. I haven't been feeling right and a lot of things have been going on and I just can't take it anymore. I need help because I don't feel like I belong here anymore.. I want to kill myself. 

K: Oh my gosh M. You can't be serious! Tell me the problem and talk to me about things before you even think about making a horrible decision like that. 

M: no. I'm tired of talking about it. No one understands. No one will ever understand. I can't live another day on this earth. I'm tired of being on this planet where I don't feel happy or loved. I just can't take it anymore. 

K: Wow M. I'm really sorry to hear that you have so much going on. I could tell you were acting different but I never would've thought that you would ever seriously consider suicide. 

M: I just don't know what to do. 

K: You've gotta be smart M. Killing yourself is the most selfish thing on earth that one could do. 

K: There are so many people out there that love you and if you were to kill yourself it would break their heart and mine as well..  Don't make a permanent decision to a temporary problem. 

M: you just understand K... No one does. I don't know what to do with myself. Suicide is the only option. 

K: you should go to a psychologist or see some type of counseler for your problems. M, there are so many people out there that could help you.. You've just got to give them a chance. 

M: I think you might be right K. But I just don't know where to start with all of this. I'm just so depressed. 

K: I will give you the number for the suicide hotline and you can start with that. I've heard a lot of great things about it and I bet they can set you in the right direction.

M: Thanks K, I really appreciate all that you've done for me. Suicide is a nasty thought, but you can't say that it hasn't ever crossed your mind. 

K: M, I'm pretty sure that it has crossed everyone's mind at some time or another, but those people realize the better things in life. Things will always get better no matter what. 

M: You're right Katie. Thanks again!

K: What are friends for? We've always got each other's backs. 

M: That's for sure :)

Letter on a plane

               I found a letter on the plane I was flying home in. Half of me wanted to read it and the other half of me thought that I should turn it in to the flight attendant.  It said dear my beloved and I read no further. I was so tempted to read it but I knew that it wouldn't be right if I did. I knew it was a big invasion of privacy if I were to read it.. But I mean come on.. Who wouldn't read something like that?

               I got home from my flight around 5:00 p.m and I was exhausted. I went straight to bed. When I woke up the next morning I saw the letter just laying there on the end of my bed.. So I had to read it. The letter was a love letter to someone's wife.. He was saying goodbye to her over a letter. Then it went into an even further depth on how he didn't want to be with her anymore. I thought this whole thing was ridiculous. 

               The end of the letter had the guys phone number.. So I went right ahead and called him because I didn't think it was right to break up with someone over a letter! So here I am dialing the number and when the guy picks up i start yelling at him.. And a big shock happens next.... The letter was a joke. And he never broke up with her. The end  

9/11

             I hardly remember 9/11, but I remember how my loved ones acted when it happened. As I grew up, every yearon 9/11 we would learn about it. There are many conspiracy theories and factual videos on 9/11 and what went down on that day. 

              I just can't believe that something like that would actually happen. I don't get why people had to kill so many innocent people. It was a sick and horrible for them to do that. I feel bad for all of the people and the peoples families that were effected by the bombing on 9/11. 

               I think that people really opened their eyes after 9/11. After it happened the airports got a lot better security. It's a lot safer now.. It's just too bad that they couldn't catch the bombers before they did it. It's also sad to think about that the people that bombed the planes were actually made to do it. Not all of them actually wanted to do it. It just goes to show how different other countries are.. And how they feel towards America. I really hope that nothing like that ever happens again, but you just never know in a world like today. 

             

Breakup Letter

Dear boyfriend,

I'm sorry but things aren't going like they should be. I feel like we are drifting apart and I think it's time to go our own separate ways now. I feel like this would be a lot easier if we both understood each other and ended things on good terms. I just want to say that I am truly sorry and that I wish you the best life possible. I am hoping that we can still be friends, but if not.. Then I still hope you have a good life from here on out. I don't want you to be hurt over this forever. So I'd like to be here for you whenever you need me. I'm sorry things didn't workout like you wanted them too, but I hope you know I'm always here to be your friend. 

Sincerely,

Katie. 

Guest speaker presentation thoughts.

The guest speakers presentation was really sad. My first thought when I saw the kids that got effected by the drugs was "why?" Like why would someone do that. I don't understand how someone can get so caught up with drugs that they can't take care of their own kids. I think that the guest speaker presentation was very informative and a good way to get the word out about how horrible drugs really are. 

How do you plan to make a difference?

I plan to make a difference by being the best person I am capable of being. Anyone can make a difference just by being a kind and caring person. I feel that there aren't enough kind people in this world. Imagine a world where everyone was nice. If everyone could just get along I think that this world would be a whole lot nicer of a place. Sometimes I feel like it can al start just by one person being nice. If everyone realized that they want to be treated nicely then this world would be so much better. I know that everyone has a heart deep down but sometimes people don't choose to show that they care and I think that that's where everything is going wrong. 

Journal #2

Dear old friend,

You were my best friend when we were both growing up and I wish it could've stayed that way. Sometimes people drift apart and I never thought we would have. I thought our friendship was forever but I was definitely wrong. The whole time we were friends you knew that my biggest pet peeve was a liar. Well a liar is exactly what you turned out to be. At first when we stopped being friends I was a little bummed out, but then I realized that I don't need people in my life that lie and make drama. So therefor you're out of my life and I couldn't be happier!

What sucks is..

What's sucks is when you're doing a group project and you're sick and you can't go to school the next day. It sucks what you lose the point when you tried hard in the group, but
Just because I wasn't there I didn't get the points. It also sucks when people don't ever stop talking.. What sucks is when you get blamed for something you didn't do. And the thing that sucks the most is when someone doesn't believe you and you're not lying.